[gadget945]

See, all the folks here are just concerned with you and you being happy. You have got to figure that all of the comments that you are getting are from people that have all different kinds of life experiences have a common thread. That single thing that follows through is that you have got to take care of you.

You will find someone sooner than later, sooner if you are really sincere with yourself and decide that you deserve better. By all means, don't go off the deep end and just start trolling for a piece of ass. I hardly think that is going to happen, just doesn't sound like you.

There is a happy place for you, and that is your own space, that you choose to SHARE with someone special.

It sounds kinda silly, but I'm gonna tell you this. On a personal note, kind of. My "hubby" and I are not paper married. We have been together long enough and call each other husband and wife, and thanks to the great state of Texas, if I wanna ditch him, I gotta get a piece of paper to do so.

It's not really about labels on the relationship. It's about the level of communication in a relationship. My hubby is one of those guys that will give a complete stranger the shirt off of his back for no real reason. I am pretty much the opposite; I work hard for my stuff, you gotta give me a really good reason to give it to you. Folks have used and abused him for a long time, and he keeps doing it. The point of this explanation is that someone who knows the both of us has come up with this explanation.

God put us together for a couple of reasons. There is only one person on the planet who gets to screw my hubby, and that is me. He is with me because he is here to protect the public from me. LOL, I know, not little ole me, right? I tend to go off on people that irritate me, and feel very justified in doing so. He's the front line of defense.

You know there is another thing to consider. Have you EVER been in a relationship where you are comfortable with telling your "spouse" --- 'You are REALLY pissing me off right now, get the F*** away from me' or the best one 'F*** OFF' Psychologists may disagree, but we have talked about it with each other, and have no problem saying it to one another. Doesn't happen very often, but it doesn't mean we don't love each other. It means that we are irritated to a point that things may get ugly, and someone needs to step off. You know sometimes when we get into a "heated discussion" that no one wants to leave it alone? That's when we use it.

Bottom line, it's THE most honest relationship I have ever been in. We work together all day, we sleep together at night, we literally spend 24/7/365 together. He's got my back and I've got his. Folks think we're nuts though, for spending so much time together, they don't know anyone else who can.

It's out there sweets, it really is. Just quit looking for it. Before we got together, we had decided that we weren't ever going to get into a serious relationship again. It just kinda happened over a few beers and dinner, don't know how or why, but it did.

Okay, I'm done ranting for now. Don't want to have to mod myself... LOL